Chapter 13: Twenty Seven Donuts

       Smoking weed has a way of distorting time.  Unaware of the world outside of my apartment, days and weeks slipped by with work and weekdays merely an annoying intermission between sessions.  For the three of us, weed had quickly become an antidote to the pain in our lives.  A pleasing escape hatch from a world in which a fulfilling intimate relationship or financial stability remained laughable pipe dreams.  Every weekend, we lived like the world was ending, destroying as many brain cells as possible.   But this weekend was different.  Owen had moved into a new apartment, and we had decided to commemorate the occasion the only way we knew how.  We were going to get fucked up.

At the time, life seemed to be treating Owen well - he was on a winning streak after obtaining a job at Lord of the Fries.  High on animal rights and veganism, he seemed to be in a rare state of contentment.       

We met in the city, just in time for Owen to finish his evening shift, and caught the train out to North Melbourne. I had never been to Owen’s previous house – the details of which seemed shrouded in secrecy.  His new housemates were friends of friends, and were unlikely to be home that night, so we had the place to ourselves.  Arriving under cover of night, Mitch and I cautiously entered the front door and surveyed our venue for the night.

A bachelor pad in the truest sense, the living room was populated by a dilapidated sofa and an old tube TV on top of which sat a novelty bong shaped like Yoda.  The only other furniture seemed to be a broken coffee table housing a torn sports magazine and a black top hat.  The stench of dirty socks and cigarettes hung in the air. A glass door led to a small balcony overlooking the car park and presented a breathtaking view of the luminous cityscape, only a few kilometres away.

“I wouldn’t touch anything in there if I were you” cautioned Owen as he saw me heading into the kitchen.

Undeterred by the stained counter and soiled Tupperware on show, I continued to explore.

“Got anything to drink?” I queried as I opened the fridge, revealing an empty expanse occupied only by a small glass jar half filled with a translucent red liquid. 

“Nope”, replied Owen matter of factly.
       
I took a deep breath, drinking in the existential horror of the environment and regretting not bringing some bottled water with me.

Owen completed the grand tour by showing us a clogged up toilet and mould covered bathroom.  His bedroom consisted of a wafer thin mattress and several stacks of boxes randomly placed among an elegant tapestry of jocks and socks on the floor.  The room smelled like boy.

Deprived of our creature comforts (and drinking water), we resolved to have an enjoyable night getting acquainted with Owen’s plastic bong.  I had never used one before and was somewhat intimidated by the device – revolted by its threatening face hole and murky bubbling water.  The bong seemed strangely symbolic of a transition of sorts for me.  I was no longer just a guy out for a bit of fun.  I was on drugs – good and proper. 

As a child, I had broken my arm falling from bunk bed.  I still remember how quickly it happened, and the shock of beholding my twisted limb.  Smoking the bong was the same.  It was startling.  With one breath, I was propelled backwards in time, through a maze of dazzling colours and scary clown masks.

I slowly reclined into the broken sofa, allowing myself to relax.  The stresses of my lonely work week fell away, giving rise to a warm, pleasing disorientation.  I passed the bong to Mitch, his eyes greedy with anticipation.

 “You okay man?” said Owen, sitting across from me grinning widely, clearly amused by the loss of my virginity.

I nodded my head in slow motion, vaguely aware of Mitch smoking next to me, the faint bubbling of his bong water drowned out by the music on the stereo and the twinkling city vista.  Even though I was in an unfamiliar place, the gathering storm of nightmares seemed a distant memory, conveniently washed away by the herb and the presence of my best friends.

I became aware of a clicking sound, somehow metallic.  I slowly surveyed the room, taking a few moments to realise that a key was being turned.  Someone was at the front door.

As a man frequently engaged in an illegal activity, I had become unfortunately accustomed to this experience.  I lived in fear of being ‘found out’ while smoking.  On many occasions I had imagined two surly cops angrily invading my apartment and finding my weed as I sheepishly looked on, red eyed, trying my best to feign surprise. 

It didn’t take much for me to get paranoid when I was stoned.  I had experienced it many times before, and knew that full blown terror was just around the corner.

Four burly guys tumbled through the front door, beers in hand, immediately shattering the quiet zen we had cultivated.  They were all at least six foot tall, with broad shoulders.  Owen’s housemates had arrived. 

Like hideous caricatures, they burped and farted their way into our space, thudding down on the couch next to Mitch and I, now squashed into a small corner by the window.  Taking ownership of the room, these guys seized the space with their powerful presence as we sat back, stunned, and far too stoned to do anything.  Our attempts at awkward small talk proved fruitless and yielded one word responses or mere grunts.  These guys were ‘proper’ men.  Fresh from an evening spent binge drinking and fighting. 

Owen looked crestfallen as he tried his best to make conversation with the giant men.  He laughed a fake laugh and glanced over at me.

“I’m sorry”, his eyes said quietly.

Years later, Mitch would liken these guys to a “den of pigs” as we remembered the sting of disappointment.  Their booming voices and crude humour sealed the fate of our Saturday night.  It would be a full week until we would have the opportunity to hang out again, and they had taken it away.  Their intrusion meant I would face a full week of perilous work politics and loneliness without so much as a weed fuelled bender to show for it.   Unbeknownst to me at the time, it would be much the same for Mitch.  

It wasn’t long before a small herd of drunken girls arrived, each one more scantily clad than the last.  All three of us seemed to share the same thought.

“How old are these girls?”

Despite my compromised cognitive abilities, I could see these girls were young.  Attired like prostitutes, they sat on the laps of these men, fawning over every stupid remark and bodily function they produced.

“What do they see in those guys?” I thought, still confined to the corner.  I imagine every man has thought that particular thought at some point in his life.  Wondering why women prefer volatile, uneducated men over their more refined counterparts.  For Mitch and I, they highlighted an uncomfortable crisis of confidence in our own sense of masculinity. 

“I need some food!” belched the biggest of the three guys, his considerable belly hanging out the front of his t-shirt.

Owen stood up immediately.

“We were just gonna go for a Seven Eleven run”.

“Yeah I’m starving, also I need some smokes” I chimed in, ecstatic at an opportunity to leave the den.

“Come on dude” I said, prying Mitch out of the seat next to me, careful not to sound too enthusiastic lest it cause a confrontation.

“Can we get you anything?” I slurred absent mindedly as I gathered my wallet and stumbled towards the front door.

“Donuts!” said the Big Guy.  He reached into his wallet and casually handed me a fifty dollar note.  His eyes were wide and bloodshot and his breath reeked of beer and pretzeled bread.

I examined the note.

“How many dude?”

“Twenty seven”.

“Twenty seven?!”

The Big Guy nodded, and then returned to slapping the arse of the poor young girl obediently sat on his lap.  She screamed in mock surprise, but her eyes were filled with foreboding.   I carefully pocketed the note and rushed out the door with my friends, scared they would leave me behind.

Downstairs, I realised the full extent of the bong I had smoked.  My body trembling, I walked down the street like a newborn calf trying to find its footing.  After slamming into a mailbox, I lassoed my arm around Mitch’s shoulder for stability, and the three of us laughed and shared a collective sigh of relief.  Granted temporary reprieve, we trundled off into the night.  I had never been so stoned in my life.

***

The lights in Seven Eleven were blindingly bright.  I squinted as I opened the door, allowing my eyes a few moments to adjust.  Almost immediately, Owen and Mitch abandoned me, leaving me to attend to the voluminous donut order.  Still shaking from the bong, and barely able to walk, I ambled over to the glass cabinet where they were kept.  My paranoia began to kick in, and I was suddenly aware of everyone else in the store looking at me, their heads shaking and tongues clicking in disapproval at the young stoner. 

Disoriented, I slowly began loading donuts into the small flat cardboard boxes supplied.  Mitch came by to check on my progress, eager for me to admire the handful of candy he had decided to purchase.  Owen was on his hands and knees in one of the aisles.  He was searching for something vegan, and unstacking the shelves as he thoroughly examined every item, much to the chagrin of the attendant at the counter who looked over angrily, muttering in Hindi.

Each donut box would only hold four donuts.  The Big Guy had requested twenty seven.  I was overcome with dread as the stack of boxes grew; scared of having to carry them back and wary of the judging eyes of the other customers.  Owen and Mitch seemed oblivious to my difficult task.  Neither of them helped me.

Still trembling, I packed up the last of the donuts and took the small stack of boxes to the counter where the angry Indian man looked at me incredulously.  My hand dove into my pocket and produced the money I had been given.

“Fuck this place” came Owen’s voice.  He stood behind me, arms folded and eyes aflame with indignity.  As it happens, obtaining vegan food from a Seven Eleven is quite impossible.

We paid the attendant, and started our trip back, quietly listening to a vegan sermon from an empty handed Owen.  I was hoping that his housemates had gone to sleep or retired to their bedrooms with their jailbait.  No such luck.  The Big Guy eagerly accepted the stack of donut filled boxes and began quickly shovelling them into his mouth as his female companion looked on in revulsion.

We stayed up a little longer, the weed gradually wearing off and fatigue setting in.  The Big Guy eventually went to bed, slinging the teenage girl over his shoulder as she screamed in protest, pounding his sizeable back with her fists to no avail.  Mitch and I pretended not to notice.  Later we heard more screaming as she locked herself in the toilet and refused to come out.

Wearied by our stressful night, the three of us retired to Owen’s bedroom for a few hours’ sleep.  I curled up on the floor, my head resting on a pile of Owen’s musky clothes, Mitch not far away from me.  Ignoring the screeching coming from the next room, I drifted off into a restless sleep, cold and afraid that one of Owen’s giant housemates would steal my shoes or murder me in my sleep. 

Obviously fed up, Mitch was determined to catch the first train to the city at 6am.  The two of us left Owen to his slumber and embarked on our journey under the blue light of the morning.  Braving a brain piercing headache, we walked to the train station together in silence, like broken soldiers returning from war.  We both knew that our weekend fun time was over.  Exhausted and thirsty, I stared at the pavement, yearning for the comfort of my own home and a shower. 

We never hung out at Owen’s place again.

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